My silver linings playbook

C'mon, It's just a drawing.

Five minutes ago, I wrote about Goldie—off to high school. This fall, she’s applying to college and will be out of the house next August. Picture me now, lying on my stomach, pounding my fists and feet into the carpet. It appears I’m exercising; I’m actually falling apart. Too much? Over the top? Maybe. But understand I’ve struggled to define life’s purpose, as I know many of us do and have, and motherhood provided answers—immediate, well-defined, profound. Yes, Goldie will still need me from … [Read more...]

Tuesday Tidbits: the Mets, Trevor Noah, clouds, and Adele

clouds chimney

The Mets lost the World Series, which means the Kansas City Royals won. KC is an excellent baseball team, yada yada, but Goldie asked Sunday night if they played in Missouri or Kansas, and I replied, “Who cares?” (It’s Missouri, by the way.) And if you think I’m being cruel, dig down deep and tell me you don’t feel the same. Mostly what’s inside is disappointment, and some concern over Daniel Murphy’s mental health. For those out of the baseball loop, he’s the Mets’ second baseman who made a … [Read more...]

Catching up/random thoughts, part 2: Shonda Rhimes, homosexuals, and red wine; being a woman in a man’s world

women in sports

- In June, after school was out, I fell into “Scandal”. It’s unclear how it happened but Netflix is mostly to blame. I was a huge fan of Shonda Rhimes’ “Grey’s Anatomy” at the beginning, before things got stupid, and so I put my faith and many evenings into binge-watching Rhimes’ sexy series set in Washington DC because I’ll give just about any show set in DC a chance. I hate/love politics. (I’m not entirely sold on “Madam Secretary” but I do like Tea Leoni, cold on Bebe Neuwirth.) Anyhooooo, … [Read more...]

Wednesday words: I coulda been a contender

JoAnn Neil AYSO pic

All my life I've been a deep thinker and it's gotten me nowhere.  Yesterday morning, we started off poorly in the Neil household.  It was Miss T's birthday and I'd disappointed her.  I won't go into the reasons why and they were ultimately fixed, but on top of her sadness, Goldie was upset to hear I couldn't go to her last freshman volleyball game.  I hung my head, confused at their perceived shortcomings in my mothering abilities.  I really am doing the best I can. Regardless, I drove Miss T … [Read more...]